A little bit like

It's a little bit like fainting.
At first I know something's wrong.
I know it though I can't figure out what it is.
Something's just off.
I feel a little dizzy, so I sit down.
As I wait for this strange feeling to pass, my vision gets blurry , and I become disoriented. My senses aren't working properly.
I hear the blood pounding in my ears, but feel like all my blood is gushing out of my body. I'm begining to feel unease , but as the time goes by it's starting to really bother me.
I become numb to my surrounding.I can see all the worried faces but cannot hear their soothing voices.
I try to move , to straighten up in my sit, but I lost all control of myself. All my actions are meaningless. ineffective.
I don't know what i'm doing , and what i'm doing it for.
And I'm craving for help, i'm craving for that one thing that will save me from this nightmare.
I need someone to lean on.
All the worried faces, they can't help me now.Not now.I'm too far in it.
I try to think what I did wrong,
what I could have done to prevent this horrid situation.
And right in that moment,
I fall into oblivion.


That's what it feels like, to lose you.